attention whore.

D has gotten to the point where i can not stand him. it's never enough for him, ever. although try as hard as i may, he never seems to understand that my life is different. my mother's undeserved comments about how i'm an idiot for having a boyfriend and D's mom harsh words of reality that came crashing down upon me like a ten-foot wave, "you're the biggest bitch to my son." what do you say...what can you say to such an accusation?

i was left speechless at the cafe unable to hold a grip on what had just been told to me. you would think that by now a man could stand his ground but unfortunately i think i'm looking for something else. i'm looking for someone that can defend themselves without the aid of their parents. i'm looking for a mature person who won't make me feel stupid and insecure. i'm looking for a completely different experince.

i can't seem to figure if what i want is to end all contact or give eachother time apart but i am sure of one thing: things can't go on like this. either i woman up and take the insults and comments and stay with D or i run out of his life and enjoy whatever is left of my broken life. whatever it may be i do hope D finds happiness and i hope that one day he too will grow up.

is it wrong to want to leave all the negativity behind? to want to leave all of this emotional distress behind? no. i dont think it's wrong but it is the most challenging obsticle i've come face to face with.